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And at this point, now that I've gone and said everything I've said, with no responses…
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I still think, "hey wait, I mean, this is all just, I mean I just said a bunch of stuff, you know, there's no reason why we couldn't just pick back up at 'hello i hardly know you' and continue to get to know one another." I mean there's no, I mean I can't see any reason why we couldn't. It's not like I broke anything? It's not like you were depending on me to be reasonable?
Like how could you ever depend on me for anything?
It's just this, "I pressure you" situation. And I really think the heart of that is a miscommunication.
All of your "well what am I supposed to say to THAT", well, I mean I never expected anything but a natural response. E.g., "That's weird." or something like that.
but if the reason for your inability to respond is because you were affected in a way that caused internal conflict. I can totally understand that. You want to be honest, but you don't want to hurt my feelings. I think that ties in to the bigger picture.
I think perhaps some of the stuff I've said may have played on your heart in an uncomfortable manner. I'm sorry for the discomfort, but I had to say what I said when I did. I just can't find a workaround for that.
I've said a lot already. I suppose the main point is that I'm still here. And I guess if you just don't say anything, I'll be motivated to think more, about what else I could say, or how else I could say it. But then that would just lead to more writing of these messages, maybe tomorrow, maybe next week. Always, in the interim, my life grows dull.
I'm toootally open to your input. Stop letting me bother you? Let me know what you'd prefer?
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